'Unsensitivity'

Why.... why..... why...

Just tell me why.. i don't understand why am I like this..
So hard and un'understandable'.
Sometimes, i try to be... But it doesn't seem natural.
Really, it seems that I'm really not like that nor that kind, no matter how much i've tried.
I just don't know why.
If i could change my personality to 'that', life would really be much better...

Tired of it being like this.. *Hope*